it's really tired to vie for something.
vying for something is really not my cup of tea,
but i will do my very best as i know i have my friends out there who encourages me :D
but somehow the last call isnt theirs.
perhaps its destined to be hers.
somehow im completely defeated morally and mentally.
whats not yours would not be yours.
sometimes no matter how hard you tried to prove or show ,
it doesnt work as the person doesnt seem to notice or care.
it was the past when she told me infront of many that she has more potential than me
somehow the problem doesnt lies there ,
the fact is i did not utter any that i thought i will outdo her.
ever since this , i could sense a strong competition between us
but however , its no use of showing who's got the potential as her mindset is set on her.
it doesnt take much to prove to someone but it takes much for the person to notice or at least believe in me but nothing seems to happen.
somehow it doesnt seem to be a fair competition as i feel biasness , perhaps no matter what i do would not change her mind or even move her mindset.
but i felt that giving up on the long run doesnt seem to be ,
i will do my very best
but the last call is hers.

tuesday 06 november

bridging lesson today ,
its was mr dinesh last lesson ,
times flies , he not going to be teaching us anymore in the future.
hopefully after miss loh is back , my chem would not drop.
i prefer mr dinesh better than miss loh lo.
i dont know what the heck miss loh teaching but i know the heck mr dinesh teaching.
hahaha.
anyway i think 3e1 will miss him , he's such a jovial teacher.

today

went kallang for training,
the sun is hot till i can die.
ran around 7 rounds around the 5 basketball court.
wa siao, as if i going faint any sooner or later if i dont stop.
training with nyjc , erm blah blah blah~
just dont feel like saying
so demoralised.

tomorrow

erm dont know whats going happen tomorrow.
perhaps kbox again.
im going to sing out my lungs out and vent my frustrations!